Doctor's Orders

Type

Inspirational Women

JULY 17, 2017

A wonderful serenity has taken possession of my entire soul, like these sweet mornings of spring which I enjoy with my whole heart. I am alone.

WRITER

Kirsten Doddi

Sometimes I wonder how a moment and a little connection could mean so much and change the course of a person's life. I have seen the dark side of life, and I have conquered it. My journey into drug started at the age of 26. I had just bagged an MBA from one of the prestigious universities in the world. Before then I was already working as a Regional sales manager in one of these Fortune 500 companies. I had a lovely son and a cute daughter coupled with a lovely husband and father of my kids. At age 26, during one of our summer vacation, I slipped and sprained my knee in the process. During treatment, my family doctor prescribed Oxycodone and Oxycontin which was initially meant to pacify the pains I was experiencing as a result of the sprain. As time went on, I was done with the med, but by then the damage had already been done. I was personally doctor shopping for the drugs because my cravings for it skyrocketed. At first, it felt normal because of the way it made me feel. But as time continued, I knew it was no longer just because of the relief it brought, but I was already hooked even though I hated to use the word addicted.

Everything on the outside looked perfect. Family and friends still saw me as that perfect women, and at the workplace, they still referred to me as that disciplined and law abiding woman, but deep down I knew all was not the same. But gradually, I began to lose all I had ever worked for. The company I used to work for at first suspended me for absenteeism before they later fired me when they couldn't curtail my unprofessional conduct. I began to hurt everyone that had always been there for me in the past. I started nagging at home and cussing my kids and husband. I wanted to get out from the dark hole of drug addiction but every two step I take, it seems I take four steps backward.

 

My life changed when I got pregnant with my third child, and the scan revealed that it wasn't going to be possible because of the substance that has contaminated my blood streams. I knew that despite this beautiful and amazing gift God has given me, there was no way I could stop taking the drugs. One of the nurses during the counseling sessions referred me to a female rehabilitation center around where I lived. I started attending the women rehabilitation center and met other women passing through worse drug addiction situation. The women rehabilitation center made me feel safe and loved. I began to see positivity, and my husband always sent a custom made inspirational card and flowers every three days. I began to listen to podcast messages and also engage in physical exercises and extracurricular activities. I also began to teach the kids who were in the center's orphanage home.

After battling with drug addiction for 5 solid years, I can boldly say that I have been sober for about 3 years now and also full of life and with purpose. I now have a job at one of the biggest sales company in my city and also run a free orphanage school for kids. With the safe delivery of my child who has turned out to be the source of my motivation and happiness.